Tomorrow I'll be 20, and I don't feel ready for it. I've always been one of those people who becomes super excited for their birthday but this year I'm not looking forward to it. I didn't celebrate my 19th because I was so sick last November and now I'm about to be 20 it seems crazy. I'm the kind of person who would rather be watching cartoons and climbing trees than doing grown up stuff. I can't help but feel like I'm out of place not being a child, does everyone feel like that?